I have only recently discovered that there has been a technical problem with the contact form on this website, and that for many months, perhaps even longer than a year, messages sent to me through the contact page have not been reaching my inbox.
All this time, I believed that nobody was writing to me, when in fact some of you had written with kindness, with gratitude, with questions, or because you were going through something painful and needed somewhere to place your words.
The thought that anyone may have believed I had read their message and chosen not to respond is deeply upsetting to me, especially those of you who reached out while suffering, grieving, struggling, or feeling alone.
Please know that I did not ignore you.
I did not receive your messages, and I had no idea that they were there.
I am so sorry for the silence that followed, particularly because I know that sometimes it takes a great deal of courage to write to another person and speak honestly about what is happening in your life, and when no reply comes, it can feel as though your words have disappeared into nothing, or as though the person receiving them simply did not care.
I care very much.
I am now working on resolving the technical problem, and as the messages are recovered or begin to reach me, I will take the time to read and respond to each one of them. It may take me a little while to make my way through everything, but I do not want anyone to think that their words are unimportant to me.
To those who wrote simply to tell me that something I had written had touched you, helped you, made you laugh, made you feel less alone, or reminded you of something in your own life, thank you. I am sorry that your kindness did not reach me when you first sent it, but it means no less to me now.
And to those of you who wrote from a place of pain, my love and prayers are with you. I am sorry that I was not there to answer when you reached out, and I pray that in the time since, some comfort found its way to you, perhaps through another person, through an unexpected kindness, through prayer, or simply through the quiet strength that carried you from one difficult day into the next.
There are moments when technology fails us, and words sent with hope seem to vanish, but the love, sincerity and courage behind those words do not vanish with them.
I am here now, I am listening, and I will write back.
With love and prayers,
Sushree Diya Om
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